18Sx

Me and yc art...18sx....middle of the night...too boring...and we done this --....
Nice hor?? =]....crazy....tata....write song 1st =]

Lose

I admit...i admit i was wrong...this few day i see alot couples picture bringing her gf go everywhere and enjoy and pak tor...and do me and her have such happiness???is no....
i seriously wan it too....looks like wat she think is..i couldnt give her something like this??
like treating her as a gf...she start to jealous other couple long time ago??tat she really really wan it...and she cant get it from me..so she went to enjoy with fren alot...and i start to jealous...
i duno is this the way she was thinking...Phewwwwwwww...

We lose An quan gan le..u dont feel it from me and i don feel it from u too....

She was working....and i was actually working too..together wit my fren kang..but he had a accident...so i stop working and went to hospital to visit him always....
Soo...She have to work and i have to wait...Cuz she gonna stop working on april....
YEAH I WAS JUST WAITING FOR ALL THIS LONG....FOR THE DAY SHE WILL BE FREE.........b4 tat day......then we break le......
WHY???can anyone tell me why???just 1 more day....1 MORE AND I CAN DATE U OUT AND GOING PLACES TAT U TELL ME U WANNA GO WITH ME....=(....
WHY TT.....WE BROKE UP 2 WEEKS LE.....everyday i ask myself WHY...and i reli miss u =(.......................................................................
Is this wat she wanted???SHE NEVER WILL LISTEN TO ME NOW ..I DON KNOW WHY..
I WAS WRONG...BUT IS ALL CUZ OF MISUNDERSTANDING.....
I DID NOT BUY HER ANYTHING ON VALENTINE...BECAUSE...WE WAS LIKE ..ARGUE...
SHE WAS IN HOMETOWN....ABOUT 4 DAY...SHE TOLD ME HER PLACE GOT NO LINE AT ALL....phew....and on the valentine day she still in hometown...she message me goodnight sweet dream...BUT I DID NOT RECEIVE HAPPY VALENTINE DAY...i though..she doesnt wanna pass tat day with me...SUPER EMO ALONE AT HOME...
So..i did not really went out and bought her thing...
on tat day..we went to pavillion..yi ru intro me a restaurant and it is exp .__. as tat day pak tor with her..haiz...just bring her have a nice dinner ba and forget about the sadness on valentine day
.and she bought me a body glove shirt...for valentine........zzzzzz
I KNOW...SHE HURT BADLY....BUT I DID NOT MEAN IT..IS REALLY ALL MISUNDERSTAND..HAIZ...but she doesnt wan to listen..she keep in heart...
and now..it bcame hatred .......
IAM SORRY.....DEAR.....aiks..........
i miss you and regret TT...

Sad news for band

Bassist left the band for some reason....well....have to say TATA my fren.....Good luck JACKY

WEIRD

I POST SO MANY PICTURE AND ONLY 1 PICTURE CAME OUT...SOMEBODY HELP --

Happy brithhd????hmmph...

Today...Celebrate 'Tracy'=(...birthday...yea ba...should b a happy day ba....went to alex house 1st...and play wit his baby
Cute huh??yea..i like it...he like to laugh wit me when i sing lol..he is cute =)..nvm i was cute too..when i was baby...Lol.....did not know big le look so sux --.....
after tat then go gilly cafe find mei theng...then bring her fren go sing k..after tat arrrr
about 4+ le ba...we finish sing and go mei theng house wait hx come...then ar...
tracy suddenly came ._. ....i like OOO TRACY...but...she like ==......feel so stranger ._.
she din even smile wit me??or mayb i don even dare to look at her?
sweat a little ba..and skin sensitive le lolz....1st i saw tracy i feel like...don wanna say ba zzz
so we reach there about 6.15....
THE SAISAKI 6.30 ONLY OPEN..zzzzz....
after 6.30 le we go in le...we like some special superstar --...other ppl need line up..but we straight go in and sit..lol...and thenn err...erm..i feel like sitting tracy infront actually...cuz i feel like talking wit her..and joke wit her..
but then....mei theng rush to her front sit ._. ....what can i do???sit mei theng bside???NO._. alex sit........bside her??NO...erica sit le ._. ....and i just sit the most side --.. phew..cant even hear her voice..zz....Phew...So...i better sit another table wit BK and yi ru and juang they all...
suddenly i saw 1 uncle...wit a big family...and they need to seperate sit..
they got popo and kid...canot ba ._. .....
AND TAT IS WHY I LET THEM SIT OUR TABLE AND WE TRANSFER TO FUTHER DE TABLE...DON BLAME ME T.T.....but nvm le...in the end tat uncle like thx me alot..cool =)...
after i sit far from them i don feel comfortable --....and i walk to their table....
wanna talk..but duno how to start...
so i start wit ...HEY I HELP U ALL TAKE PICTURE LA =P....luckily erica gave me her camera =)...helping them take group picture is the only way to look at her??hmmph...and she look at me..
but is actually the camera --..nvm...
i actually zoom quite near to her face 1st...then only seriously help them take pic...
hmmph...
So!!!!we only go 12 ppl...and there is 1 long table can sit 12 ppl...so ppl go le..and we can sit tat long table le...sooooo i try to sit just closer to tracy???and wat???BK come tell me he sit there ....zzz..
why --....then slowly yi ru need to sit bside her...then yk and yc came le...and yk need to sit there --...and tracy say...U SIT SIDE ABIT LA ....zzzz...so i just straight away sit the end of the side there.....is better tat she feel i try to close to her..so...they sit happily le --.....
well..i still sit wit juang alex and yc...and tat was so crazy...wit the oyster joke --....don wanna mention here la sure lolz....and i start to look at tracy....she been left out..she look outside..she see another table...she couldnt hear our joke..tracy busy wit kang kang...erica busy camera...hx wit kc..and i duno MT do wat ba...and BK no more idea for any joke le...and she was like not reli happy...haiz...wat can i do??go there and say hi??and i will look annoying for her??phew...i was hugging my bag always..why??her present inside ma --...and erica though i wan to leave le lolz....and erm...they wan to take group picture.....and i seriously wan see her for the last....i use erica camera to see her --...sorry ca ...stupid...In the end....take alot joke picture...wit the pornstar YC...cuz he got his new hair cut and it is super ART!!!!!




.and erica though i wan to leave le lolz....and erm...they wan to take group picture.....and i seriously wan see her for the last....i use erica camera to see her --...sorry ca ...stupid...In the end....take alot joke picture...wit the pornstar YC...cuz he got his new hair cut and it is super ART!!!!!


Thats all ........



So...yc send me back home...the 1st one who back was alex...
in the half way...yk wanna pee --...so yc,juang and kang come in my house lo..

and play awhile --


And they went to my room...and i open my drawer...treasure inside......
they read a book inside --...sweet book..and YC read...lol...he simply create story sumore
and tracy gave me de minnie..inside was written wit chinese..and he keep change the word lol...
Tats all...Clubbing next time...
Nitex.....
When you feel so tired and you cant sleep was the most suffering feeling...
3.30 now..tata..try to sleep...is been 2 week continuous cant sleep
and erm...this post like got problem..haiz..canot move those word le..if not those picture will gone...here to add up de...aiks...
The only last chance tat i can close to her was when we walking back to car tat time..i just call her ...and say ur present er...she say HAR got ar...haiz...she like HAR WHY GOT PRESENT...aiks..so i just gave her the book ba....my bag still got flower...and i see her reaction like tat..i duno how to give her...i duno..confuse...NITE

Joker at facebook.....

Lol....
a girl name Chui ting..known as yk x gf AHHAHHAHAHA
age18
ex murnian...
NOW SHE IS BACK...
lol....She left sri murni school i only go tat school de...
and she heard my thing from other people??Lol....joke la....famous =P
i did not screenshot way she do in my wall post --..lol....nvm
anyway...She very joke de...she start with
R u kok leong???
ahhahahahahahaha...Lolz...look she don even confirm iam kok leong..hahaha...and wat she do??
She scold me....While i was form 3...Why i nv obey the form 5 ....LOL.....
she making me laugh like hell....
She say i broke teacher car glass...LOL...I WAS FORM 3 AH DAI LOU...hahahaa...U SUPER CUTE LA "CHUI TING" LOlzzzzzzzz
The 2007 form 5 use to bully form 3 student....
The reason for them tat wanna fight wit me cuz i look lc??LOL...where got ..i always =) geh...
but seriously....funny la..hahaha.....seriously...duno wat she wan de --...
She should b horny to 2007 de form5....as erica saw the wall post oso laugh..she oso agree with tat little chui ting horny..Lolzzzz...and she deleted the post --....
why she need to delete???lolz...i oso haven scare then u scare jor....Zzzz..u know shame de?
lolz....cant help her out...lolz...and i went to her post and say..please =D..now she remove me from her friendlist le --...come on..u don have to do tat..grow up pleasse..i hate bitch in my fb friendlist too =D...
==....

erm

She break wit me is because she feel i suffer being wit her....
because she always with other guy....always chat wit other guy...i know..she is friendly..
i don mind actually tat she have alot guy friend...but there is limit??aiks...i duno how to tell
She just will left out me and with friend....i not jealous...i just emo...and i emo make her doesnt love me anymore???iam confuse...why she can stop loving me just in 1 sec...cant i???i hope i can....
as i know de her..she was a really loyal gf and understanding gf...haiz..i duno what change her...phew...i miss her...i know i couldnt let her know ...she doesnt like it..aiks...
iam suffer being wit her cuz she left out me..then i wait till she stop working le and really have time wit me le then break wit me...don find it weird ma..haiz..
if i say...i feel more suffer without her..will she come back??joke hor??i know d..every second of me think there r still have hope between us...i duno future..i just do my path...
I will change..joking around makes me look like idiot...talking and teaching ppl making look scary...understand wat ppl gonna say making me look like alien...
u left me...
i love you...

To my beloved dear ...

I've called her today...She let me call =)...i though..everything will b ok soon liang..just wait till night and talk to her...but..no wor =)...something tat i cant accept...but i have tooo...seriously...very hard....

i say....
please don blame me...that iam still so wan to find u...is not just bcuz i em se dak u is..everything =)...everytime we meet...i saw u smile..i will feel =D...ur smile make me satisfied..very leng..Is still the same thing i wanna tell u...even though is lame and boring..but is meaningful...i love you...i admit i have been bad temper this few day..sorry..i have problem wit family..i really cant take it..no one to share...and i miss u =(...When i feel we have hope tat time then u leave le...when i feel like i can change tat time...u leave le...i really wan u to trust me the very last time...i know i can do it..why don believe zek..why wor =(....from the day u say u wan work and u start work..i choose to wait till the day u stop work..cuz u will always busy and with working fren..now i wait till tat day le...and i lose u......AIKS PAIN PAIN PAIN!!!!!!!
thats all...she wouldnt wan to give me any chance..bcuz she think i will nv change..phew
i really hope she trust me the last time..i duno how to express my feeling..is like..i really need that trust..aiks
i have done something wrong....
This year valentine cuz of some misunderstanding then i nv buy anything for her...
she felt hurt..and i can feel it now....
and i think..i must do something...
i wanna wait for her birthday...april 21...just few week from today...
and she left....AIKS.....everything goes weird...
i am knocking myself...please..a chance....AIKS...I ALMOST REACH THERE

IS REALLY ALMOST !!!!!!!!!DAM!!!!!!!WAT IS THIS..1!!!!!!I REALLY NEED THAT...
how can i stand this???the feeling was really pain.....
I CANT DO ANYTHING NOW!!!!

Today....

Today was ban kok birthday party....
is so gud tat bk party held on today=)...it help me meet my fren and enjoy??
but seriously..i din really enjoy...sorri bk and fren =(...i try to laugh as loud as i can le...
but in the end..i see u all did not even mention TRACY this name...i start to feel weird and sweet =(..
Tears rolling around my eyes.....i wanna cry...but is impossible to cry infront of u all...cuz it will just make fren worry...and oso not they hurt me =)...
Today i went to see her...
my phone spoilt le i oso duno --...
sux...
i keep find her and let her know i will find her later.....
but i don get reply...
Lolz la....
i went to her shop..and i did not see her...sad....
i sit outside and wait...she actually sms me and ask where i am??
but i din receive..i just sit outside her shop...
wait ler half an hour...she came...and say she went to buy bread...aiks...
tat moment really..Lol....
i wanna talk...and i cant...weak...aiks...
and she went in to shop...she actually sms me and say think till le only find her..but i din receive ._.
i just wait outside ..just wait until she come out and talk wit me..cuz i though she busy...
wait another half an hour le....every sec was painful...aiks...
in the end i went in myself and say i don wan lose you...sorry...aiks..She say..she need to think..
She wan cry...
I wan cry...
and i left....
what i really wanna say is..being wit her was quite san fu cuz i always feel i will lose her anytime...bcuz she too friendly as she say...but...Lol..nvm ba...but now i feel i total lose her now i feel seriously pain in my heart...
thats all...
I have to keep walking ba...
i'll see how she think ba...
i hope we can work it out together better than last time....
we just need do it together...
I cant sleep....Nite

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Yea...i admit..iam weak..i cant stand....ppl telling me everywhere oso woman..wat is the for i still so wat towards u ..aiks....
it sound annoys to u...mayb i sounds like iam an idiot to ppl..like nobody wan u ah liang...why u still wan stick on her...
phew...
why cant we meet and talk???u don wan give urself a chance to love me??r u scare to love me??aiks
why is it =(....
i know whenever u meet me u will happy...but why could such thing happen to us??
i duno...
i miss you...
对不起...
phew...i duno...is just sound crazy...why am i saying sorri??i duno...
I surrender!!!!.......
CANT SLEEP...
i need to talk!!!!...=(

I know....

Yea...wat happen??yes is true...we broke up...and iam the one who mention to break up??
iam the one who don wan to and i mention...can anyone feel how hurt is it?
We r almost broke...today 8 ...she say wait..she busy...chatting wit parent
but she actually went to play xbox 1st...phew...obviously i can feel..our relationship is rubbish...
i was waiting and thinking how to settle wit her ...and she went to xbox...
i don wanna mention who wrong.....
i was just worry...waiting....worry.....what i get??
she say...don wan waste my time anymore...i was like urg...cant u just say don make me worry anymore??
y so selfish???can i know why????What is wrong!!!!is like a revenge from u...
is like u r plan to hurt me so deep and kick me away now....leave me hanging in the middle and stab me again and again!!!!!
Why r u treating me this way..i really wan know why TT.....
Telling u i love u is like no feel....
we break up is not cuz of jealousy...u r too selfish....i was left out by everybody and hope u were there for me..and u purposelly not to be there for me..now..u left me forever...
u keep quiet in phone...
i asked...do u really wanna break??is very obvious i don wanna break..and i hope u say no...
but u ignore me.....i ask..u reli cant even sacrify few word to talk??she ignore...
i don have the choice...u force me .....iam crying badly...i have alot thing share wit u...but u push me away from sms...and went to enjoy wit fren....
Look dear....i know u...and u know me...u know i cant stand..but u still ignore me...
in the end...u still wanna ask to b fren..u r cutting my scar.....
u will never understand...u will never wan u....
A relationship tat i don wanna lose...
i hope u change...i have done so much thing ....
but u cant even sacrifice abit...
I know..u can sleep and tml hang out with fren and forgot our 2 years relationship....
u r cool....
telling me stop wasting my time worry u is seriously bullshit...
2 years together only say such thing...problem wasnt there..
problem is ...You Dont willing to sacrifice even a little....
wat u say really hurt me alot...I cant face u....
iam totally pain and pain and pain..wat can i do...
Dear i wanna cry but i cant...
I was wrong to worry you
I was been ignore by caring u
I was been hurt by loving u
I am nothing to u just bcuz i need u
Goodbye dear....
The end