Music life

Almost 2 month..
after guitarist juang had a car accident..he lost his car ;(..so we hardly meet at studio..and drummer stay very far from us...
now..left me,chris and eddie in the band...
we plan..we still can walk this road even if is only 3 of us..
but chris say..we really need 1 more guitarist and 1 bassist..
there is a girl came wanted to interview..so i ask her to meet me at studio..
but she never come --..call her..never pick --...until now..she never call back..
so just forget about it...
after i catch the inspiration to compose song..i created my 1st song on May
the 1st song name
Everybody screaming..the meaning of the song is like
we had too much pressure in life..too much sadness..and we need to release..

2nd song
Walking back home
This song..mean ntg much actually..because i haven write finish the lyrics :x..

after this 2 song..then we create our own music..and all..
after 1 more month..

i wrote the 3rd song..
Hate myself..
This song mean something like i've been so weak..that i've fall for you..and you betray me..but i know the truth that u lie to me..but i still love you..i just cant face the truth..hate myself for being to naive..
i love this song alot..because most of the people love this song too :D..
is very sad song..arggg..better dont think about it..i wrote this song after i watch a movie call 'Once'

after that i never write any new song until july i guess..
i dont have transport to go studio on that day..i remember it is on sat...
so i carry my guitar , my laptop..wearing my shades..waiting for the train..
the train was so full..so i try to walk in..and let ppl push out..afterward..the train closed the door..then i wanted to make a call to chris...
and i find out that my phone is lost..
i look around..and i just say FUCK..
ppl around me looking at me..
no choice..go public phone and called my dad..
after studio..i went back home..and i was thinking..what if i write a song about the thief who stole my phone..with positive thinking..the inspiration came from kind thinking...

my 5th song..name 'Run'
He steal things just for his family living..he have 2 children..a boy and a lil girl
he always went back home late..because his job..is just stealing..
he change his shirt everytime he back home..so that his children think he went for office job..and his wife had a job at office too..
one day..he went to steal thing at evening..he was running and running ..
and he saw his wife was actually working like a prostitute..saw her walking hugging with some kind of uncle..and he just run until he reach home..

i believe this song will bring feeling to ppl..is a very nice song..

and on the october..i lost a bassist and a keyboardist ..
this is why..my band left 3 person..
we still haven give up our dream..

on the November..
i wrote 4 new song..
'Try'
'Stop pretend innocent'
'Priceless'
'Heaven touch'

arggg..i'm facing all this alone..i wanted to meet my bandmate..but hardly ..
no transport..have to wait for next year..so i can get my own car..

On the december..
The girl that i mention who wan to interview..she compose chinese song..she play piano/guitar/drum and she sing well too..so i think she is talented..
but too bad..she just put an aeroplane on us --..
I dont know how to write or read chinese..so iam stuck here..
most of the people listen to chinese song too..as i wanted to compose 1 chinese song
but impossible for me..is like..i cant write chinese song..i need someone to compose for me..but i cant ask help from ppl and give ppl ntg lol..
in the end i try very hard to compose a chinese song..
in the end i made it..
the name of the song is Love give too much..
the lyrics is written by my friend..Alex Criville..thanks to him<3

on december i actually wrote a song.for a girl..which unknown to ppl..
nobody know who is it..because a love will never happen..i never want to tell any of my friend too..dont tell me this..'Never try Never know'
dont tell me'If i dont confess..i will regret'
I know what will happen....
this feeling give me an inspiration to write a song called..
'Last word'
This song is like a message..a message before i lost in her life..a message that she will know 1 day..i cant express my feeling by telling her..then i have to sing to her..this song will be sing out soon..

Thats my 2010 music life..
every song i write..came from just 1 support..thx <3

Next year..is my new music life..i want the world to listen my song..is a day dreaming look...but success come from dreaming 1st..
If there left only just 1 more fans..I'm still a ROCKSTAR \m/!!!!!

I'm writing a song..about war ...i wanted to sing a song to help the world..thats all i want<3..see yea!!

Pork Dick Son

28th 2.00am port dickson blue lagoon,Tanjung Biru...

with Melody,Joyce,Yva,Chace,Sand,Christopher,Alex and Richard
on 12am i start to pack all my shirt and camp..and wait until 3am!
at home..waiting for bunch of fren is torture-ing :D..
after they reached..i sat on melody car..and inside just melody,joyce and yva..
i burned a cd for them..nice rock music..so that we can sing at the car ;D..because last time when we had a trip to penang..we sing like HARDCORE ON THE CAR WITH OPEN WINDOW..but this time..iam together with the girl..i need to be quiet :D..but is quite good too..cuz iam tired actually..i never sleep for 2 day..and iam going to PORT DICKSON ..ntg much on the car..just chat..and here come yva snap with me again
but this time not nice!!!cuz she nv snap till herself clearly :(..have to snap again..

Doesn't look like me O.O

we reach PD around 4.15..quite near..should be more far :x..

after we reached everybody is hunting for toilet..

very nice..we found 1 PUBLIC TOILET..but closed..this is so call public toilet >.^..

so..the girl cant pee...they say nvm..

only Sand went to pee on the beach.. :D...

but all the guys cant stand..have to pee on the beach too..sorry..polluted :x

after that we found a spot for us to camp..

so we built our camp..and set our fire..

we r pro..can you imagine..we start our bbq fire in just 5 min ^~...

yva and joyce went to buy something like sparks..dont know w

hat was that..very nice..

easy fire starter..lol...in 5min the charcoal turn REDISH!

so..while they taking the food out..we guys went to hunt for sticks..we want to make something like campfire :D..romantic !!..

we found alot stick/coconut ><...

so difficult to start the fire..because all stick is not dry..

but i still success to start the fire..not very big fire..normal :(..

while the food is on the bbq...iam free :)..

i took 1 can of 100plus..and that is the moment..

i walk around the beach...SUCKING the beach wind..close my eyes..phew..feel so relieved ..

however i imagine someone beside me..better not mention :D...

is too romantic..and i want to share this moment with someone

..but i guess it wont happen..

so i walk back..and DONE...no light...the chicken turns BLACK..whoaaaaa....

we have prawn/sotong tom yum/sausage and th

e stupid mushroom not nice.smell so mushroom!

couldn't tell when was the best moment..but..i guess..nvm ...

ermm..is almost 8++?

The ass showing Photographer..he shot alot nice picture

but he wont upload until sunday..zzz

YEAH!

Inception LOL!

i think so...

we start to go in to beach..the girls dont wan to :(..so we guy just walk as deep as we can..

not very deep..even though we walk very far.."(..

so we just walk back..

we wanted to play some beach game..so melody went to ask those ppl..

so our 1st game..is ....omg...i dont know what is the name --..

something like 2 ppl in 1 small long boat..and we use something to push ourself?lol..

yeah something like that..no pic :(..wait i go google for picture ;(

this is not exactly one..this is dragon boat..

our one is like 2 ppl on the boat..like 1 on the front and one on the back ;D..

Price very cheap..rm15 for 1 hour..But then we so many ppl !!

then he gave us rm15 for 2 hour..how sweet ;D..

each bot sat 2 person

yva.melody

chace.sand

chris.richard

me.joyce

Where is alex??:)..

he dont have partner..so sad :(..

so after half and hour with joyce..

i go back and pick up alex..

so joyce have a nice sleep on the camp 1st

then me and alex rock the beach..

we both strong..so we call ourself as the dragon boat :D..

i guess we r the destroyer haha..because..

i ask yva to come nearer to me..then i hold he

r boat..after that..i stood up and jump to their boat.

and try to sink them ;D...and success LOL...

after awhile i try to run sink juang boat..

but they find out..they go too fast..me and alex was too tired ><..

so we went back to yva boat and chace boat..

they both boat stick together so i try to sink both

of them XD

and alex go away by himself ==..

after that me and chace jump to the boat and chase richard boat..yeah..we get to sink their boat ;D...

was so tired after that..dry up ourself..and wait for the bbq thing to calm his temperature...

so we play volleyball :DDD..

ahh...

after that carry everything to car..and change location..

but 1st..we need to eat..way too HUNGRY!!!!

we waiting for joyce friend and had our lunch together..since they r coming...but wait and wait..

half an hour only they reach --..

ok...alex them already very piss...lol

and they suggest us to some seafood place..famous place..but it takes HALF AN HOUR to reach .

after reach there..they told us..they r cleaning the kitchen..so is close --!!!!!

no idea..we r all freaking hungry and piss..so we drive back to town..and have some nice food too

at the end..yeah..we ate..alot alot alot ..and fast..

then we straight go to another location for banana boat!

Pantai teluk Kembang!

yeah..this place is nice..

specially for water sport game..

rm25 for banana boat and Storm!!!

chace and sand is tired..so they sleep on the car :(..they just miss the best moment..

eventhough we felt so so tired..but WE need to continue :D..

so..the storm..i dont have the picture..

hard to describe :(..

something like sofa..but is plastic..just imagine..is like banana boat..but 3 person on it..

sleep on the storm together..and each of them has 2 grid on left and right to hold ..

me/richard and richard is the last one to play storm..

we were thinking..should we let go our hand when that guy try to swing us away? :D..

in the end..we doesnt want to...cuz is so fun..is very bouncy !!!

we were shouting..

ME:COME OUT THIS IS NOT ENOUGH..GIVE MORE!!!

RICHARD:OII NEVER EAT AH!!

CHRIS:NO FEEL AT ALL

the guy show us his thumb O.O....

then he speed very very fast!!!and swing us....GOD..iam flying!!!!but iam still holding the grid !

my body is on the air..suddenly..Richard is flying too..he kick me!!!

so my body turn around..and my head is on the water..but my hand still holding the grid...

so my face is like going after the wave..i cant stand..i lose my hand ;D...i feel so hurt on my face and body..i almost twisted my hand..suddenly..i saw richard on the water too --..

Chris shouting WHOAAAAA..

then he pull us up..and continue one more last swing XD...after the swing..haven even rest..then banana boat ..--..is unfair for me /richard and chris..lol..

new guy now..he asked us..do u want easy or hard!lol

we just shout sure hard la!!

then he say later remember to lose ur hand when he swing..omg

i though we must hold the grid so we wont fall? ;D

ok so goo!!!!!!

he say we r going far this time..going to another island..

so 2 banana out ;D

one banana is us..and 2nd banana is joyce friend

the problem is..why our banana is must more faster than them??

the 1st swing..

chris sit infront..he like know everything lol!..

1st swing..HARD SWING..all felt down..the banana was terbalik le haha..can feel the power..

felt so pain and suffer..the sea water goes in our eye nose and all..lol..

2nd swing..no problem..cuz everybody smart already haha..the impact very big..the one that sit in front is gonna knock the person behind them..zzz..

richard almost lost his safety suit...his clips came out --..

the 3rd time..i though everything is over..cuz i feel very pain ..but i still shout..COME ON GIVE US MORE!!

then he suddenly slow down..hmm..i think is already end..

suddenly he TURN!!..

yeah fuck..iam not ready..iam holding the grid..everybody felt nicely..but me..

my leg knock until richard..i dont know where..my leg..my knee :(..

big knock..and i cant swim back..so alex and chris pull me back..

better not mention the pain..cuz is gonna cut the fun :D..

so lets just walk back..

everybody was tired..

my knee was so pain..i cant drive..so yva drive ;(..cuz later i need to drive back home..

after that..we bbath and joyce friend room ..and time to say see ya..

joyce still there with yva accompany her...and see ya to them ..

drive back..

yeah..everybody was tired//

so i have to drive..i was worrying actua

lly..i did not sleep for 3 day now..and i knock my knee..

but melody walk like zombie XD..

so ..i have to drive...yeah..is pain..wadever..

chace was shooting light on me --..

so i try to stop my car..and let him overtake me..

but he did not!!

i stop my car on the high way..and he stop his car on the highway tooLOL...

melody keep say me crazy haha..

then i drive very fast away...and i stop my car aside..cuz we need to turn already..

chace stop his car infront me..and he stop his engine on the highway..they walk out..like very sleepy!!LOL...

then i faster drive away XD..

then they rush back to the car lol!..

and yeah..around 10+ we reach home...<3..

OK?hehe><

very fun<3..

i did not hold the chance..bcuz i cant..

<3>

Christmas eve

24th

Woke up at 12pm..arggg..nobody at home..everybody went out to PLAY...

went to online..until 2++..stomach sound**

argg..lazy cook..

yeah..got car..

i use to drive CRV..but today..CRV is not here :(..must b

e parent took him away...

so..too bad..left one car at home..fairlady :D..my father car..yeah.

.took his key..and drive out..

And call..ei Richard lets eat

Richard:Sure

Richard walk out and holding his dog..and richard just O.O!

he run to the car and say..OO yeah..how nice...

ok..open window..let richard dog blow some wind..richard dog name bibi..

i hate this name..because it sounds so cute..and bibi is a guy..

and put bibi at the petshop to have some spa bath <3

then we both went to eat wantan mee lo..as usual..we love mahkota wantan mee..

after that..we plan to PRANK ALEX.. :)

OK..Richard drive his car..went to fetch alex..because aroun

d 6 ++ we need to go friend birthday party :D..

so iam driving my car hiding very far from alex house..once alex hop in richard car..ok..

follow and follow..

until we reach highway...then i just drive very fast..

and shoot light on richard car..

the conversation is like that

Richard:wei..who is that at the back..

Alex:dont know oo keep shoot light on us..

then i cut richard car...Open window..and show o0o...

Then richard hon me...ok i can say richard is a good actor ;D

When richard hon me..alex say OI..don play la..dont care him...

AND that is the moment..alex fall in to PRANK :)...

then i just drive very fast and make a fool on richard..and let alex feel who is it :)

then we almost reach my house..

alex guess..it must be Kael brother..

slowly slowly..open gate..

Alex say..See..sure is Kael brother...

Open door..i smile at alex :)..

Alex just O.O...

me and richard laugh hard :D..who is next :)..

Wanted to prank yva ><..

.......

we reach the birthday party at 7..

so hungry..and ate ate ate ate..BBQ BBQ BBQ...

oo is a long missing friend...miss it..

Happy birthday Oscar <3...

Around 10++ we head to Erica new house..

then i sit yva car..

just chat chat chat..

while waiting for the traffic..we both kept silent..

then she suddenly take camera out and snap picture with me :O..

actually i like it de..just that moment..my hair very messy...after BBQ..hair = shit

Everybody say we look alike..is it?:O

Maybe yeah..people say we have the same eye and nose LOL

Reached erica house..

O noo..her house is lovely..nice decoration

nice enviroment

her room is full of pink.zz..light also pink..

walk in..feeling is like..girl wonderland..feel very gay..

sleep at erica room 1 day will become gay :x..

and eat eat eat again...

the best part..is..ps3..lol..

omg..the game very nice :O...

err..name name..err...Sports challenge gladiator??lol ..forgot...

+1..

when i see the happiness ..

This is the unbeatable look :)..

Ok..see you :'(

Life

Y such face?

Yeah..iam going through this alone..but mayb there is a friend..but i did not want to..
once this pain shared..it wont reduce the pain..like something 1 split to 2..is gonna be 1/2 1/2..but this is..gonna give extra pain ...
this is the 1st time..i kept my feeling for so long..
the 1st time i nv share with anyone..even in my blog
is burning inside..is something like..u need to tell something out..but u actually cant..but if i dont tell..iam going to lose it..and if i tell..iam going to lose it..so wtf?yeah..is getting more and more complicated..to keep this complicated only for myself..the only think i can do..is really..just let it be and live with it..take it as a lesson..and learn how to stand even there is fire burning in heart..
is a chance to grow..and learn not to so PASSION in love..
i have ntg to say but..i really fall for it..
but look..i've learn to control my love..is like..i can control..to love a girl or dont love a girl..even if the girl is freaking perfect..
but why not this time?i felt different...even there is many layer of protection..but this feeling cant stop..is all about myself now..i always made my decision with a flip of coin..
bcuz i believe myself is the only one who know myself the most..
I dont wan things to change..if only it is going to improve..
I love the happiness that we create..i think..is better of this way
but is this what i ask for??argg..just COCK it --
i need to write my song..i need to finish all..iam addicted on song writing..
i cant put too much about love infront of me..and blocked everything i want to do..
i wont fail...
so emo post --...
next post should post something happy ;D..my 2010 xmas day? >.^..take care all<3>

Life

Recently I've been reading books and watching movie and is all about life..life has alot of categories? example
Life inside has love,money,hobby and bla bla bla
and this few month..i learned about love..
i went to study and watch how loves happens
'I love you'..we always say so..to the girls and guy..
but who actually really understand what is love?neither me?
but one thing i know is..everybody inside grows with love..
even a boy age 10-15..will fall for girl..is an uncontrollable feeling...
love can happen in anytime anywhere in any situation..
last time..i though of '1st sigh love' is some kind of bullshit..lol...how can you just love someone in just 1st sight thing ..and don't even know each other ...
but now i believe in anything that can causes the sparks of love..there is always something like undefined sparks in between there..no one can explain out wtf is that ..
Love can happens in 1st sight,friendship,one night stand and bla bla bla ..
never say anybody cheap when they r deeply in love...sometimes..they do act very cheap and die for love...

i cried badly for my 1st love lost..
i wanted to die for my 2nd love lost..
and i have no more confident in my 3rd love now..
every time i get into girls..like ok..i flirted her..she love it..i can confess to her anytime..
but at that moment..i always step back and think..'I guess i cant love her'
never think of forever love..but learn how to truly in love with someone..forever love?
today iam with you..tomorrow we broke..this can count as forever love in between you both only..
i had a feeling..that there is a girl i can truly in love with her ..such a strong feeling..
but i have no confident..to tell myself..that is her or who..hmm..let flow i guess?

people always say..never turn back and look..just look forward..look how bright is your future..
but if we don't look back..we will never know..what we have done before..things that hurt people..
people we need to appreciate..love that we've just miss..so what?
we should look at our past time..and correct the mistake we've done before..only we can be a great person in future!

i dont have much friend...errmm no..i do have much friend ..but..not true friend..
someone..come to me and ask me to count my true friend..and my eyes just watery..i hate her..

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Man xuan birthday

1/12/2010
ANG MAN XUAN official birthday date..
at 28/11/2010
me/yva/chace/richard/alex already celebrated her birthday..because she need to go penang and work at 30/11/2010..so we have to celebrate earlier...and she though this is the end of her birthday...
So chace decide to go penang and give her surprise..yeah..
1st i though is ipoh..because alex told me is ipoh...argg..i dont know..
only me/alex/chace going penang and look for the F*** Ang Man Xuan...

The Journey Start..
3.00am
we start to go..from kajang...
i purposely went to burn a disc for our trip..
Song list..Muse
One Republic30 Second to mars
Secondhand serenade
Coldplay
Linkin Park
Kings of leon

yeah..all kind of song that we love and can sing along...
whole road is like 0 car..so we open our window and sing loud loud..shout!!
the feeling is so nice...
we continue sing until we reach the 1st toll...
1st toll KL to Ipoh..Rm28
we using iphone4 GPRS..extimate time to reach Penang ..minimun 4 hour..
Chace did not tell us..and himself..did not know that the toll is so expensive..
i just bring rm60 only..
Everybody money is inside atm..
after 1 hour drive in the highway..we rest at shell station
and the fking atm is not working..no money come out --...
So whole car only left rm60...and the petrol is half...but after another hour we stop at another petro station
and alex success to press rm100 from atm zzz..like we r so happy...
then just go and go..crazy singing in the car...hardly sleep...
suddenly alex want to pee...he wait for very long edi..we only found 1 toilet stop..then he just ran in to toilet
but he never see the toilet sign...
he ran into girl toilet --..after another 2 hour..atlast we reach penang le~
then after we found the hotel that Man xuan stay..we call her..
she say she eating at another place..and she ask where are us??zzz
Chace say he is with me and alex at mahkota..eating bread --
so..we have to find Man Xuan at another place..
She is working as agency for something like bio bla bla bla...
then we found her company lorry..we hide aside and parking 1st :)..
after we took out the cake and walk to her...
yeah..she dont know we came..and is so far ..for sure she will touch!!!
we walk to them..and shout...
Who is Ang Man Xuan....
She shout loudllyyy!!!ahhh!!!
Chace say
This Cake is delivery from KL
Ang Man xuan please...
yeah...after the surprise..then she need to start work...so we need to leave...
the time is 9.00am
so i suggest them to pulau penang...
Richard always tell me that penang Chow kue teow very nice...
yeah...so we search for the top 1 penang chow kue teow...
after we reach there...very nice..
the waiter came and ask me..what drink i want..i just say dont want..
she say..if no order drink..need to pay 50sen --..wtf..then i order one ICE KACANG..
i rather pay rm3 also don wan pay for the 50sen..
yeah the ICE kacang taste very nice..and very special..
the chow kue teow taste ok ok only..just a little bit more tasty than normal one
and alex say just the pawn bigger only..and is RM7..if Add more mee then rm10..ZZZ
the price too exp for a chow kue teow..
then Chace was too tired..so we decide to rest 1st..we slept at the car..while we chatting..there is a guy come and knock our car..and say parking time is over..need to reload --...GOT SUCH THING ? --..then we drive away and go to other place..yeah..we still get to find a very nice place to park and sleep..
3.00 we woke up..chace there all still want to sleep..but i feel so boring..zz..
i say just back home ba..
going back that time..im the one who drive..cuz chace too tired..
nothing special after all..just petrol and toll money not enough..
1st we ++ rm10 petrol..we just worry that the toll money very exp..
so not dare to ++ too much..
2nd ++ petrol..rm17 :D..
then i feel sleepy too..and let alex drive..
after 1 hour..atlast we reach KL!!!
the most scary thing is..we saw the toll--...
stop there and ask..BERAPA?
Rm44 ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ..
whole car..only left rm30 in my wallet..omg ..
GUESS what..there is a thing called..OWE THE TOLL MONEY ..haha..
so we pay rm20 for the deposit 1st :)..cuz we still need rm10 to ++ petrol..
yeah..left 1 bar of petrol...is blinking at the sign..
and we r still in KL..dont know where is it zz..
Chace drive slowly..with the gear D and N :D...
For the emergency help..
we called our fren..Richard rich zz..
then he was so worry and wanted to drive and find us lol~..
but in the end we able to reach sg long..then Richard fetch me back to kajang..
how sweet..and the end..this is the stupid journey we got...
Chace did not tell us anything about the toll TT..only petrol + toll already used rm200+..
The end..
The best part of the journey is ..singing in the car loudy ...<3...other than that..really -1