Music life

Almost 2 month..
after guitarist juang had a car accident..he lost his car ;(..so we hardly meet at studio..and drummer stay very far from us...
now..left me,chris and eddie in the band...
we plan..we still can walk this road even if is only 3 of us..
but chris say..we really need 1 more guitarist and 1 bassist..
there is a girl came wanted to interview..so i ask her to meet me at studio..
but she never come --..call her..never pick --...until now..she never call back..
so just forget about it...
after i catch the inspiration to compose song..i created my 1st song on May
the 1st song name
Everybody screaming..the meaning of the song is like
we had too much pressure in life..too much sadness..and we need to release..

2nd song
Walking back home
This song..mean ntg much actually..because i haven write finish the lyrics :x..

after this 2 song..then we create our own music..and all..
after 1 more month..

i wrote the 3rd song..
Hate myself..
This song mean something like i've been so weak..that i've fall for you..and you betray me..but i know the truth that u lie to me..but i still love you..i just cant face the truth..hate myself for being to naive..
i love this song alot..because most of the people love this song too :D..
is very sad song..arggg..better dont think about it..i wrote this song after i watch a movie call 'Once'

after that i never write any new song until july i guess..
i dont have transport to go studio on that day..i remember it is on sat...
so i carry my guitar , my laptop..wearing my shades..waiting for the train..
the train was so full..so i try to walk in..and let ppl push out..afterward..the train closed the door..then i wanted to make a call to chris...
and i find out that my phone is lost..
i look around..and i just say FUCK..
ppl around me looking at me..
no choice..go public phone and called my dad..
after studio..i went back home..and i was thinking..what if i write a song about the thief who stole my phone..with positive thinking..the inspiration came from kind thinking...

my 5th song..name 'Run'
He steal things just for his family living..he have 2 children..a boy and a lil girl
he always went back home late..because his job..is just stealing..
he change his shirt everytime he back home..so that his children think he went for office job..and his wife had a job at office too..
one day..he went to steal thing at evening..he was running and running ..
and he saw his wife was actually working like a prostitute..saw her walking hugging with some kind of uncle..and he just run until he reach home..

i believe this song will bring feeling to ppl..is a very nice song..

and on the october..i lost a bassist and a keyboardist ..
this is why..my band left 3 person..
we still haven give up our dream..

on the November..
i wrote 4 new song..
'Try'
'Stop pretend innocent'
'Priceless'
'Heaven touch'

arggg..i'm facing all this alone..i wanted to meet my bandmate..but hardly ..
no transport..have to wait for next year..so i can get my own car..

On the december..
The girl that i mention who wan to interview..she compose chinese song..she play piano/guitar/drum and she sing well too..so i think she is talented..
but too bad..she just put an aeroplane on us --..
I dont know how to write or read chinese..so iam stuck here..
most of the people listen to chinese song too..as i wanted to compose 1 chinese song
but impossible for me..is like..i cant write chinese song..i need someone to compose for me..but i cant ask help from ppl and give ppl ntg lol..
in the end i try very hard to compose a chinese song..
in the end i made it..
the name of the song is Love give too much..
the lyrics is written by my friend..Alex Criville..thanks to him<3

on december i actually wrote a song.for a girl..which unknown to ppl..
nobody know who is it..because a love will never happen..i never want to tell any of my friend too..dont tell me this..'Never try Never know'
dont tell me'If i dont confess..i will regret'
I know what will happen....
this feeling give me an inspiration to write a song called..
'Last word'
This song is like a message..a message before i lost in her life..a message that she will know 1 day..i cant express my feeling by telling her..then i have to sing to her..this song will be sing out soon..

Thats my 2010 music life..
every song i write..came from just 1 support..thx <3

Next year..is my new music life..i want the world to listen my song..is a day dreaming look...but success come from dreaming 1st..
If there left only just 1 more fans..I'm still a ROCKSTAR \m/!!!!!

I'm writing a song..about war ...i wanted to sing a song to help the world..thats all i want<3..see yea!!